Well I started writing about labor yesterday but I had to go to bed half way and tonight I'm on a different computer and too tired to finish. So today was Halloween. Usually not a big deal. Today started that way. Played with the dog, slept some more, read the Bible, got stuff ready to go out for the day. Went to Wal-mart to picture up some photo cards I made of you Jael. That way I could give them to the dr.s that were so nice and all. The lady there asked if I was your mommy and congratulated me. I said thank you and then she asked how old you were. I said you were born last Tuesday. I almost started to cry. After I got some of your pictures we went to an interview for daddy and lunch and then Dr.s. We gave the dr.s your pictures and they were thrilled. So that made me feel good. The dr. also said I was healing up just fine. That was good news.
Later we went to a store and I bought a hat that has a cat on it. Daddy said I looked really cute. Then we went to a friends house. We had yummy dinner and for awhile I wasn't too sad. I can't help it though. I just think about you all the time. I miss you. After dinner we sat outside to pass out candy bars. Seeing all the kids in costumes made me think of a cow costume that I saw that I would have loved to put you in. Not that we really do Halloween, but it still would have been cute. I was also thinking how nice it would be if daddy started a fire and you and he and I were sitting on the couch feeding and rocking you and enjoying being a family. So eventually instead of crying I decided to go inside. Then Tara,daddy and I went to the store and that helped take my mind off things. But not for long.
It was also a sad day because another person from church one year ago lost their little girl. Maybe you've met her? I hope so. I bet you've made so many new friends. I wish I could be there to guide you and see you grow. I wonder if you will grow while I'm away or if you'll still be my little baby girl. I guess I won't know until we meet again.
I still love you always,
Mommy
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