15 days

Only 45 minutes of of 15 days. Then 14 days. Little princess where has the time gone? I mean of course I know tomorrow is 38 weeks, but to see the number 15 days...wow. There's a lot to do in a little time. Not all of it having to do with you. There's something I have to do that will be difficult, but it will only be worse if I wait until after you come. I don't look forward to it. I do however look forward to meeting you. It will be one of the best things that ever happened to me. I don't look forward to letting you go though. That's why I'm dreading when the timer is up. I'm also afraid that we'll have less time than even 14 days. If the amnio doesn't go well tomorrow again and they're worried that it's too much stress for you then I'll be afraid to do the last one. But there's danger if I just leave it off and wait till 40 weeks. I don't know what to do. But you are in the Lord's hands. I have to keep trusting that He'll guide me to do the right thing. I mean after all even though the amnio wasn't the best last week, you came through like a champ. I guess my worry is that it will weaken you. Now I'm just repeating myself.
Anyway you went to your first women's retreat. Even got some pretty pink pearls for you.Laid them right on my tummy for you. You also made a new friend. Her name is Willow. She's a little younger than you are, but she also has some problems. But when you get to heaven you'll have to pray for your new friend that the Dr.s can take good care of her. Though I think it would be wonderful if you two could meet in person. But if you can't I know you'll look out for her from above.I wish things didn't have to be this way. With everything that I am. It seems so hollow when I say that. Like its not enough. And it isn't. I can't even convey the words. Well it's officially 14 days now beloved. Time for us to get some rest. I love you.
Love,
Mommy