Dropping Down

Well today you are 35 weeks and 2 days along. We went to visit our wonderful Dr. and he told me that you had dropped down! That means you're starting to get ready for your big debut! Now it doesn't mean that you'll come tomorrow or the next day-you still might not come for a few more weeks, (which is fine-you grow all you need to) but it's one step closer! It was pretty funny when I told daddy about what the Dr. said. His jaw dropped a little and his eyes got very wide and said, "What does that mean???" I laughed and said it just meant you were closer to being ready. But he still wasn't sure so he asked me, "Okay but do I have to worry about this the next two seconds, two hours, two weeks?" I said well the Dr. said really she could come anytime because of all the fluid. But then I assured him that anytime really means could be weeks from now. Which it could. But it's so funny, I think without knowing until later that's what you were doing, I remember you dropping down. It was sometime this past week-the days kinda blur sometimes, but you were moving like crazy-like crazy, crazy! It was a little scary because I was wondering if you were okay in there, but you calmed down eventually that evening and things seemed to be okay. But yep I think dropping down is what you were up to! (It also makes sense because we're still building up fluid but I can still breathe at this point)
I also wanted to tell you about the beautiful quilt and scrapbook your family and friends made for you. Each of Mommy's family and friends sent in a piece of cloth and a note to you and two of your great aunts made two quilts and a scrapbook with the piece of cloth and note so we knew who gave which one. There's a big quilt for mommy and daddy and a little one that will stay with you. The notes of course made me cry. But it was really nice-they gave it to us at a family dinner since we didn't have a baby shower.
Its funny to think about-in a horrible sort of way. If when we found out about your brain we decided to just get rid of you I think a lot of my family probably would have supported that. That's the way it is in this country sadly. But because we didn't (and they support that) (I think they would have just supported whatever choice because its "our choice" and its not something they've gone through) they have a chance to love you and to grieve when you are gone. If I had just decided on my own then they wouldn't have had that chance. So even though your life is short my darling girl, know that you've touched lives in great ways.
I'm not sure I said that just right, but the point is, is that you were not a mistake or accident. The Lord made you for a purpose. And even though that purpose here is for a short time-it doesn't make it any less important than anyone else's purpose. Anyway I'm done rambling for now-of course you're probably used to that.
I love you,
Mommy