Playin the game

Wow first of all I"m watching Xena...blast from the bast. I used to think this was such a great show. Now within 5 minutes my worldview has been shattered. Things are like that little one. Life is going a long just how you planned it more or less and then boom something happens and it all changes. Time happens, little changes you wouldn't even suspect. Time, time.
Anyway things with you my poppy seed are going well I think. I am nauseous often, but thankfully I am able to tame my stomach. I like to think of it as a game. I call it cravings and aversions. I am averse to the things that will make me throw up and crave that which won't. Good times, good times.
But what I really can't wait for is to go to the Dr.! Then I get to find out more about you. Maybe even hear your little heartbeat! You're daddy will be with me so he'll get to hear it too. I just can't wait till you're here. Of course there's a lot to do in the meantime, find a new place to live so that you'll have a room all on your own, decorate your room, buy lots of diapers and adorable clothes. You have good grandparents that are going to help with all that. Not to mention spoil you rotten.They're very excited about you. Everyone is. Everyone already wants to buy you wonderful things and hear your little squees and giggles. I want to hear them too, so very much. So come when you can, when you're in good health and I shall be waiting for you.
See you at the end of the tunnel,
Mommy (Daddy will be there too)

What a day

Well my little one, you're creating quite the stir in there. My dad, your grandpa got us a book about what to expect during the next 9 months and it said that "In some ways your body(mine) is working harder when it's resting than a marathon runner during a race." Or something like that. Boy don't I know it. I'm not gonna lie to you, I've been getting a lot of "morning sickness". But don't let the name fool you. It's not really just for the morning. It's pretty much on and off throughout the day. I had to leave work for awhile. Not that I minded really though :P It's hard going through this sometimes, but I remember what all this is for and I make it through for you.
I was also thinking today that I sure couldn't do this without your daddy. He takes good care of me, giving me foot and back rubs and making/getting me food, and being supportive about everything in general. So if you turn out to be a little girl, you better make sure you've got yourself a good man and that you marry him before you have little ones on your own. Doing this on my own would be really really really hard. And if you're a boy then you listen here young man. When you get to fallin in love, you make sure that girl is the one and you put a ring on her finger before you get into any funny business. Then you stand by her side throughout everything that happens. You make her chicken and rice and 11pm if that's what it takes. You promise her a dog if that's what it takes. You go to the Dr.s with her and share your thoughts and feelings about the pregnancy with her. Otherwise you will never be too old to be grounded for life. Just saying. Okay I love you. Be good in there and I'll be seeing ya.
Love, Mommy

I'm having a baby!

Well would you looky there. Two lines. Ummmmm. Freaks out. An hour later, "Dan you should get off the computer now. I have an early Valentine's Day present for you." "We're...we're having a baby aren't we." "Yep we are." To be honest I cried because I was scared. Me a parent? Where are we going to get the money from? My life is totally gonna change. How are we going to do this? Dan told me not to cry that things will be okay. I finally calmed down. Dan was freaking out on the inside but he was really there for me. Really sweet. Later that night he made me so happy. He spoke to my belly and said "No matter what I'm going to do my best to take care of you and your mommy." Of course I cried again, this time because I was happy.
The next day I got to make a bunch of phone calls and tell people all about you. First my dad and Diane, then my mom, then Katie, Tara and Mommyo. Of course Dan made his separate phone calls too. All the while we were shopping and going around town. We had Chipotle to celebrate. Later on I discovered some great websites about pregnancy and babies and I found out that when I found out about you, that you were the size of a poppy seed. And yes whether you are a boy or girl that will be your nickname for awhile. I love you little one. With each day brings more excitement to see you. And yes I'm gonna write about morning sickness and weird cravings and my thoughts about your nursery here. You might not ever read it. But if you do, know that you are worth it.
Love, your mommy (that felt weird to write :P )

How big are you now?